I know I havent said much in a while but I’m feeling very malicious tonight. I hope he kicks me out
fuck him. he’s another asshole with nothing. just a fuckload of nothing.
I’m throwing almost all his clothes. he wants to be wasteful with my things then I’ll do the same with his
i hate this…I hate that he’s around. It makes going through these changes so much harder. Not that they aren’t already but…
What the hell you know? I don’t like that he feels neglected or that I feel neglected. We’re both distanced now and I don’t think that’s anybody else’s fault but my own. I hate it this. All i know to do is cry anymore. Cry and cry and be angry and upset and cry some more and for what?
i don’t even fuckin know. I feel a little lonely at times and very hurt a lot of the other times. I don’t want to fuckin cry anymore. I don’t want to change anymore. I feel like it’s all coming up at once. Between these emotional and personal changes and my relationship and school and work I just can’t fuckin deal with these things. It’s too much for me to handle right now i don’t know what the fuck to do
i dont fucking know anything. I just know I want this to be over and I’m tired and I just want to get these stupid fuckin feelings out but I dont know how without crying these damn tears that don’t seem to be helping anyone.
what the hell am i supposed to do????
My biggest problem at the moment is that I only have one true friend and one true member of family. I live with that friend and often keep in touch with that family.
But somehow i can’t get this shit together and just get through school without procrastinating. A small world is simple but it makes everything else seem so insignificant.
